"I started noticing my ment@l health !ssues as early as 10 years old. When I was told that I couldn’t have what I wanted, what I dreamed of and what I desired and that was to rap, I was willing to d!e for it.
When I was a 12-year-old I realized that i had other thoughts preoccupying my mind, thoughts like k!**!ng myself.
I l!ed to my mama, Jacida Carter, about my school schedule and she found out, my aunt called to warn me and said momma was gonna throw away my up-and-coming rap career.
“So that was a buildup. … Thoughts everywhere. Main thought was, ‘I’m gonna show you momma’ … I picked up the phone, I called the police. Yes, I knew where she kept her g^n. And it was in her bedroom. And so I went in her bedroom, grabbed the g^n — I already made the phone call — looked in the mirror, did like that and boom!!
“In my chest. Didn’t feel it, aimed for my heart. And didn’t feel a thing, though. So I wasn’t going through any pain. It was the shock. I woke up to the police knocking. And that’s what woke me up.
Once they took the door off its hinges, police swept through the house and proclaimed they found a g^n and dr^gs, but an off-duty officer Robert Hoobler, whom i call Uncle Bob — was the only person who acknowledged me, picked me up off the floor and took me to the hosp!tal in a police car instead of waiting for an ambulance to arrive
“Look, if you a parent of a kid with a mênt@l health pr0blem or something … react with the realest reaction.
I ain’t saying be like my mom, but all I know is from that day my mother was completely changed which served as an eye opener for me, her and the whole family.
Happy 42nd birthday, Lil Wayne
